Tuesday Thoughts | Wish

 

A few weeks ago I had to pick out a book to send as part of a baby shower gift and I headed to Target. I wasn't sure what I was going to get, but thought I'd look through their selection before deciding on one. While I decided on Guess How Much I Love You by Sam McBratney, I found another book that I decided to buy for Jonathan and I.

While I was looking through the books I found an awesome book that made me tear up when I was reading it. I had never heard of it, but it is called Wish by Matthew Cordell. It is the story of two parents [elephants] that want nothing more than to have a baby. They are wishing, and planning, and waiting...and waiting. Eventually, after a storm finally comes a baby and their wish comes true.  I have read dozens of books over the past year, and this children's book spoke to me more than anything else I have read. I would definitely recommend buying it for any expecting parents that have been through child loss and are expecting a rainbow baby, or anyone that has struggled to conceive - it isn't necessarily the book for everyone.

While the story of each child is different, I feel that this book truly speaks to our current situation. As we approach Jillian Harper's first birthday on Thursday we cannot celebrate it with her. We can think about her, talk about her, and celebrate the short time she was here with us - but it is different than celebrating a birthday for someone that is living. We miss her every day and will never forget her. I wish every day that we could have had more time with her, and that she was here with us now.

As we move through life right now, it seems like we are still in the stage of waiting with a storm cloud above our heads. In no way am I saying that every day is a bad day, and we have tons of great days. Jonathan and I definitely want to have more children, but do not know when or if that will ever happen. We are praying, and wishing that sometime soon we will have another child...a living child... Jillian Harper's brother or sister... Until that day we will continue to pray, and wait, and Wish...